Damn I want a boyfriend

Last night, I went to a local Whataburger because I was really hungry and I’ve been craving some for a while. I order my food and the three minutes I’m in there, a Lexus pulls up next to my car. I hear the two cashiers talking about it like it’s something special. Three men come in and one of them was really attractive. I didn’t think much of it; he looked like an attractive boy. I was just thinking to myself that this is probably just the cashiers’ friend. I assumed that they’re the typical guy friends who attend the same school. Two girls and a guy walk in and I don’t think they had the same thoughts I created about who this person might be. I kept on glancing at this cute guy over one of the older guys he came in with because he was standing behind them, and I was starting to notice how he looks like Harry Styles from One Direction. I remember that Harry has tattoos on his arms and coincidentally enough, so does this guy. It’s just that I don’t exactly know what they are. I decided to image search Harry’s tattoos and I see on the picture that there’s a huge rose on his left arm. I look back at this guy and he does have a huge rose on his left arm. I finally processed everything and it IS Harry Styles! I tweeted before I found out that there’s this guy who looks exactly like him and how I was really confused about his identity. When I found out, I tweeted about it because I had to let everyone know. He was getting his drink and when he finished, he was walking back to the cashier. As he was walking I asked him, “Excuse me, are you Harry Styles?” He grins and says “no” and turns back around looking at the cash register’s direction. I gave him a confused look and I’m pretty sure he saw me. After two seconds, he finally turns around and says “yes” with a smile on his face and I was just about to cry. I was contemplating whether I should ask him for a picture or not but I just had to. I asked him and he said yes and I walk over to him and take a picture. As soon as I take it, I tweeted it. He got his order before I did for obvious reasons and I got mine ten minutes after initially ordering.
It’s still crazy that this happened only 20 hours ago. That night was so unexpected but I have to admit that it was without a doubt one of the best I’ve ever had. (:

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There’s this guy in my physics class and he’s gay and I don’t know if we both like each other or not but I’m really just trying to act cool around him and my friend thinks he and I banter at each other which I noticed today I did so that’s cool

I’m just going to rant really quick. 

I can’t stand all the things that has happened in my group of “friends.” There is so much apprehension and lies and lack of trust that I don’t know whether to keep fighting for my relationships, or it’s just time to move on. It saddens me so much that things are like this. I went out with a friend tonight and she pointed something that basically describes what has happened to all of us. She said that we were all so “cute” in the beginning, meaning that everything was perfect and innocent and unaware of the future possibilities. But now, we are all just so corrupt with the lack of honesty. How can we call each other “friends” if we can’t be open to one another? A true friend is someone who will be there for you no matter what. A true friend will never judge you for who you are. A true friend will worry about you because they care deeply about your well-being. A true friend is someone who wants to know about your personal life because it allows for them to connect and understand who you are. 

My question is: are we true friends? Are we genuine? Are we trustworthy? Am I going to feel comfortable around you? Are we always going to sit on the surface? Or are we ever going to try and dig a little deeper and discover what’s beneath everything?

I don’t know. I just want to have a nice talk with everyone in my group of “friends” and let everything out. 


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